fail.

whats it feel like to fail?
or worse yet, see that out come father down the trail?
im here, doing what i can
fighting what i can
trying to help
trying to see
trying to be
but somehow i know im losing
im not winning the battle
im not winning the war
im not going to win. period.
im trying to fix what i cant fix
fill a place i cant fill
be what i cant be
i cant succeed, but ill still fight to see
pain is all that'll meets me
losing is what.. just that {pain}

a baritone singing a high "C"
a tenor hitting a low "E"
these things were not destined to succeed
a failure is the best they'll be

a dyslexic spelling right
a coward winning a fight
a home-schooler getting a date
anger management getting rid of hate

looking for a actor who is real
looking for a liar who'll tell you how they feel
waiting for money to fall from the sky
waiting on those pigs who really wish they could fly

a stock broker winning the lottery
Santa leaving gifts for you under the Christmas tree
walking a road free of this pain or strife
winning at the jinxed game called life

filling a hole
fixing a break
being enough, you cant
protecting
holding
keeping
loving
being there
being all
being it
your not
you fail, always, forever
you cant protect what's not yours to keep safe
you cant hold what wasnt placed in your hand
you cant keep what hasnt been given to you
you cant love without permission
you cant be where your not wanted
you cant fix what your not allowed
you cant fill whats to big for you
you cant be enough, not now, not ever
you cant help
you cant be
you cant
cant
cant...
there's nothing.
you can only watch (ps. the pain doesn't stop)
you cant leave, cause you cant make it worse
you fail
(epic fail)
congratulations. (loser)

whats it feel like to fail?
or worse yet, see that as the end of your trail?
i'd imagine its a little painful..
winner winner.